The kinda-date went really well. Bill and I met up at a bar in the city, accompanied by all my PT friends. I was actually really impressed because he made an honest effort to talk to all of them and learn their names. Like, a serious effort. We all went to a karaoke bar in China Town and he sang, which impressed me because if it was me and a bunch of people I didn't know, I'd be too chicken shit to do it. He actually has a great voice. His friend came with him (I think he has a thing for Amy) and they said they would drive us home. On the walk to the car, my friend saw a huge picture in the Pandora store window of a skull charm bracelet and I almost had a heart attack. I LOVE skulls. I don't know what it is about them, but I think they are so freakin cool and I'm obsessed. Bill was like "what's with the skull fascination?" and I'm like "honestly, I don't know. I just love them." They drove us to Amy's parents' house and Bill kissed me goodnight, then texted me when he got home to say goodnight and that he had a really good time. Last night, he sent me a text all like "I have to show you something I know you'll love" and sent me a picture of a skull bowling ball he saw when he was out bowling with his friends. This is gonna sound SO lame, but my heart melted with that. I literally mentioned my skull obsession once for maybe a second and he remembered it. Also, the getting to know my friends thing was new to me; no guy I ever went out with ever did stuff like that.
Part of me is skeptical though. Honestly, after asshole, my guard is up big time and its gonna take an amazing guy with fucking endurance to break it down. Part of me is wondering what Bill's motive is: is he looking for ass, a "right now," or what? I also have to make sure to move this thing slowly, if it moves at all. I didn't think I would like this guy in "that way" but the more I talk to him, the more I do, and it's scaring the shit out of me.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
I lost track
Not sure how many days are left in the countdown til summer. If I wasnt so lazy, I could go and look when the last post was...but that takes way too much work.
I'm down a total of 5 pounds, woohoo!!! Wound up getting workout ADD two weeks into the XTrain rotation: it was way too repetitive and didnt even incorporate all of the DVDs. Cathe posted her own Get Ready for Summer rotation last week so I decided to do that. It mixes XTrain with her older workouts, which is more my style (especially since every week is something different). I was two days into the schedule last week and then I got knocked on my ass by the worst cold EVER. I pride myself on the fact that I can (usually) easily ward off any sickness, but this was a beast. I never miss class and I missed two last week. I also woke up Friday with no voice and could barely speak for two days which was a nightmare for me. I think it's safe to say I'm pretty much back to normal now, so the rotation started yesterday. Yay!!
I kinda have a date Thursday with a boy. I say 'boy' loosely because he is younger than me (as if i didnt learn from MMA man boy?!). Ok, he's a lot younger than me. I'm not really sure if he knows exactly how old I am but he never asked so I never told. The funny thing is, I'm 8 years older than him, a FT student, and rent a shitty dump, meanwhile he has a real job and owns a house. Go figure. We met through my roommate John; one night he had a few people over and tis guy came early and wound up waiting around for 2 hrs for John to come home. We hit it off and I thought he was cute and fun to talk to. Then Amy heard the boy (we'll call him Bill) whisper something to John who then told him to "go for it." At the end of the night, Bill asked for my number and kissed me (which I totally wasnt expecting). We've been texting pretty much everyday since then. I felt bad cuz he asked me to hang out Friday but I sounded like a 50 yr old smoker; there was NO way in hell I was gonna go out! Then he said ok what about next fri and I'm going to my parents' house that weekend. I didn't want him to think I was blowing him off so I made a compromise and said since our class is in the city for a trip Thursday, why don't we meet up for drinks down there? He agreed so here we are. Now I dunno if I want a boyfriend or what; grad school is really demanding and not many guys can handle sharing their significant others with school. I know, it sounds fucking stupid but I've seen it with tons of people in my class and its a headache and just dumb. Not to mention I'm not ready for some dude to rip apart my self confidence and self worth the way asshole did to me. It's been over a year and I'm almost healed but I still am not 100%. Ugh. I guess we will see how it goes and take it step by step. I'm not gonna lie, I love the attention but at the same time I don't want to commit myself.
I'm down a total of 5 pounds, woohoo!!! Wound up getting workout ADD two weeks into the XTrain rotation: it was way too repetitive and didnt even incorporate all of the DVDs. Cathe posted her own Get Ready for Summer rotation last week so I decided to do that. It mixes XTrain with her older workouts, which is more my style (especially since every week is something different). I was two days into the schedule last week and then I got knocked on my ass by the worst cold EVER. I pride myself on the fact that I can (usually) easily ward off any sickness, but this was a beast. I never miss class and I missed two last week. I also woke up Friday with no voice and could barely speak for two days which was a nightmare for me. I think it's safe to say I'm pretty much back to normal now, so the rotation started yesterday. Yay!!
I kinda have a date Thursday with a boy. I say 'boy' loosely because he is younger than me (as if i didnt learn from MMA man boy?!). Ok, he's a lot younger than me. I'm not really sure if he knows exactly how old I am but he never asked so I never told. The funny thing is, I'm 8 years older than him, a FT student, and rent a shitty dump, meanwhile he has a real job and owns a house. Go figure. We met through my roommate John; one night he had a few people over and tis guy came early and wound up waiting around for 2 hrs for John to come home. We hit it off and I thought he was cute and fun to talk to. Then Amy heard the boy (we'll call him Bill) whisper something to John who then told him to "go for it." At the end of the night, Bill asked for my number and kissed me (which I totally wasnt expecting). We've been texting pretty much everyday since then. I felt bad cuz he asked me to hang out Friday but I sounded like a 50 yr old smoker; there was NO way in hell I was gonna go out! Then he said ok what about next fri and I'm going to my parents' house that weekend. I didn't want him to think I was blowing him off so I made a compromise and said since our class is in the city for a trip Thursday, why don't we meet up for drinks down there? He agreed so here we are. Now I dunno if I want a boyfriend or what; grad school is really demanding and not many guys can handle sharing their significant others with school. I know, it sounds fucking stupid but I've seen it with tons of people in my class and its a headache and just dumb. Not to mention I'm not ready for some dude to rip apart my self confidence and self worth the way asshole did to me. It's been over a year and I'm almost healed but I still am not 100%. Ugh. I guess we will see how it goes and take it step by step. I'm not gonna lie, I love the attention but at the same time I don't want to commit myself.
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