I lost track

Not sure how many days are left in the countdown til summer. If I wasnt so lazy, I could go and look when the last post was...but that takes way too much work.



I'm down a total of 5 pounds, woohoo!!! Wound up getting workout ADD two weeks into the XTrain rotation: it was way too repetitive and didnt even incorporate all of the DVDs. Cathe posted her own Get Ready for Summer rotation last week so I decided to do that. It mixes XTrain with her older workouts, which is more my style (especially since every week is something different). I was two days into the schedule last week and then I got knocked on my ass by the worst cold EVER. I pride myself on the fact that I can (usually) easily ward off any sickness, but this was a beast. I never miss class and I missed two last week. I also woke up Friday with no voice and could barely speak for two days which was a nightmare for me. I think it's safe to say I'm pretty much back to normal now, so the rotation started yesterday. Yay!!



I kinda have a date Thursday with a boy. I say 'boy' loosely because he is younger than me (as if i didnt learn from MMA man boy?!). Ok, he's a lot younger than me. I'm not really sure if he knows exactly how old I am but he never asked so I never told. The funny thing is, I'm 8 years older than him, a FT student, and rent a shitty dump, meanwhile he has a real job and owns a house. Go figure. We met through my roommate John; one night he had a few people over and tis guy came early and wound up waiting around for 2 hrs for John to come home. We hit it off and I thought he was cute and fun to talk to. Then Amy heard the boy (we'll call him Bill) whisper something to John who then told him to "go for it." At the end of the night, Bill asked for my number and kissed me (which I totally wasnt expecting). We've been texting pretty much everyday since then. I felt bad cuz he asked me to hang out Friday but I sounded like a 50 yr old smoker; there was NO way in hell I was gonna go out! Then he said ok what about next fri and I'm going to my parents' house that weekend. I didn't want him to think I was blowing him off so I made a compromise and said since our class is in the city for a trip Thursday, why don't we meet up for drinks down there? He agreed so here we are. Now I dunno if I want a boyfriend or what; grad school is really demanding and not many guys can handle sharing their significant others with school. I know, it sounds fucking stupid but I've seen it with tons of people in my class and its a headache and just dumb. Not to mention I'm not ready for some dude to rip apart my self confidence and self worth the way asshole did to me. It's been over a year and I'm almost healed but I still am not 100%. Ugh. I guess we will see how it goes and take it step by step. I'm not gonna lie, I love the attention but at the same time I don't want to commit myself.